Sanningen från mitt perspektiv!

And now here I am, getting so stuck again. You are the one getting me stuck, even though I promised my self I wouldn't this time, I fucking promised it would be just fun, but somehow I can't have it just like that. I am not blaming you, I put myself in this position, no I got to get my self out of it or do something about it, as easy as that.
 At the same time I am sooo missing it, the thing I said I had realized I did not really miss. Tonight i'm making life hard for myself, thinking to much, just need to put everything aside and just focus...